I am wondering, "Anyone knows, is always children has a same character just like their parents?"
I got a problem. Someone assumes it's just a little joke. And "actually" I can't understand why it happens. Someone maybe-you-know-what-i-mean thought I was a little gushing for her. But she never knows, she is sooooo gushing for everyone (especially for me, absolutely).
I am myself. And she is herself. and the fact is WE ARE DIFFERENT. I hate to be compared with everyone (even though to be compared with my brother or my mom or my dad or everyone). And no one understand (since a looong time ago) me. They want me to understand them. But what do i get after understand them, huh? NOTHING (you can spell it if you want). In fact, they never appreciate about my changes.
I am too tired to change myself like what they want. Why don't they change themselves for me sometimes? To make me happy for a time. *just a time? never?*
They think i am annoying. But have they ever thought?? They are annoying me so-damn-much. Actually, i never concern about this. But! Do you feel angry if they always thread that all the time? Their works aggravated my mental, anyone knows about that? I grew in a family which are very complicated, ANYONE KNOWS ABOUT THAT? Even there are big problems, i just can crying inside my silence, ANYONE KNOWS ABOUT THAT?
ANYONE???
I don't wanna share about this story, actually. But i have no friends to share my pain like this. I don't know how to tell this story. Because i know i am sensitive. I know i just tell my happiness to my friends. Not about my sorrows. That's why i write it into English. That's why I have this blog. To tell all about my stories. Whatever it is sad or happy or nonsense or whatever i want. Whoever they are. Wherever they are.
Anyone understand? I am really upset.
I am *always* assumed i am useless.
Sad me.
Maybe I need to empty my mind.
I got a problem. Someone assumes it's just a little joke. And "actually" I can't understand why it happens. Someone maybe-you-know-what-i-mean thought I was a little gushing for her. But she never knows, she is sooooo gushing for everyone (especially for me, absolutely).
I am myself. And she is herself. and the fact is WE ARE DIFFERENT. I hate to be compared with everyone (even though to be compared with my brother or my mom or my dad or everyone). And no one understand (since a looong time ago) me. They want me to understand them. But what do i get after understand them, huh? NOTHING (you can spell it if you want). In fact, they never appreciate about my changes.
I am too tired to change myself like what they want. Why don't they change themselves for me sometimes? To make me happy for a time. *just a time? never?*
They think i am annoying. But have they ever thought?? They are annoying me so-damn-much. Actually, i never concern about this. But! Do you feel angry if they always thread that all the time? Their works aggravated my mental, anyone knows about that? I grew in a family which are very complicated, ANYONE KNOWS ABOUT THAT? Even there are big problems, i just can crying inside my silence, ANYONE KNOWS ABOUT THAT?
ANYONE???
I don't wanna share about this story, actually. But i have no friends to share my pain like this. I don't know how to tell this story. Because i know i am sensitive. I know i just tell my happiness to my friends. Not about my sorrows. That's why i write it into English. That's why I have this blog. To tell all about my stories. Whatever it is sad or happy or nonsense or whatever i want. Whoever they are. Wherever they are.
Anyone understand? I am really upset.
I am *always* assumed i am useless.
Sad me.
Maybe I need to empty my mind.
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